It sounds like you know what you've got to do, and I hope you've done it by now, since you wrote your comment. I'd love to see a video of your exploits!
Dude. STOP worrying about labels. It's just sex. Do what YOU wanna do. If that means swallowing hot cock & cum -- go for it! What gets you hard & dripping changes over time -- as you get more experience. It doesn't necessarily MEAN anything. Plenty "straight" guys have gay sex -- for LOTS of reasons (depending on age, it's usually convenience). Doesn't make 'em ANYTHING but severely horny. Don't turn down any opportunity 'cause it might "mean" something. Life's too short -- get out there & EXPERIENCE it!
Somebody please write me back and tell me if that's normal I don't think I'm gay I think I'll buy I like girls but I like watching cocks get sucked and coming